Eileen Loveman Daily Posting

“Did you know you bought decaf by mistake?” my beloved asked me the Sunday before the week of withdrawal from all things coffee.

“No.”  I answered softly.  “It wasn’t a mistake….” and I told what had to happen and why I had to do it.   I am blessed to have found a man who feels exactly the way I feel about things that are important.

There is no sense in worrying about something you have no control over.   God would give me the strength to deal with whatever came my way.  And his.

We sat at the kitchen table opposite from each other, his tall legs touching mine.  He digested all that I had told him and where I stood in preparation for this next event in a somewhat eventless life as of late.

“Do you feel ok?” he asked, his eyes filled with love and concern.

“Yes!” I answered “That’s why this is such a shock!  I’ve never felt better!”
 

Standing up slowly, he leaned over to kiss me on the top of the head.

“Then its decaff for everybody.” 

Later that night I relayed the conversation to Teresa, and shared with her what he had told me.  “Tell your mother, and ask her if there is any history of cancer in the family.  You have to know.”

“I’m scared”  I wrote, “…….but I have to do it.”

“You aren’t going through this alone” she wrote back, and I felt the peaceful calm wash over me every time we wrote to each other. 

“If I need to have it wacked off, I’ll have them build me a new one” I wrote in the most smart alecky voice I could summon.    “But until then, I guess I really will Eileen…..”